Not easy.

     Beth home for weekend, just called made it back "here" which is Moorhead, MN. Had a soccer game Friday and Saturday. Team pasta dinner here on the teams way home. Beth stayed here instead of taking team bus back. Nice treat to have her here. One little chick in my nest...even if brief, I will take it.
   Jordan has been gone since labor day weekend.Missing him and his constant influx of friends in our home. He just texted me. Wants me to let him know when I send something. Making sure his mailing address is correct...so I better send something. Maybe something edible...cookies. That would be a good thing! Text included "Love you too" (yup~tears. Just a few.)
   Found out Britta has a "secret" blog she just shared. Intrigued, I have set out to make my own. Wow, lots to learn and so many other things to be doing. So it will be a work in progress. All self contained and no added mess to my now clean house. ( Thanks to the soccer dinner, the house is pretty tidy.) Not sure I will share this with anyone. Right now it is mine to do as I please.
   Tears when Beth left. My heart feels sad. But she is so independant. So grown up. She does not need me. I guess that is what hurts...after always being needed for the past almost 27 years it is a huge adjustment. But it is the way life goes. I want to embrace the change. Look at the possiblities. Time to spend with Mike. Time to clean and decorate. Plenty to do, just need to get a plan or better yet just jump in, start somewhere. So here I go...ready to fly. Feather my nest and make it ready for when they come home to roost~